Arrogance..Arrogance..Arrogance

I don't understand why some people think so highly of themselves. Can't they see that they are just being a pain in the butt and people just have to put up with them...SIGH!

Just For Laughs..

Reflections...

I have just completed my first block of my internship programme. Its been three months since i have started working.I can confidently say that i have no regrets whatsoever being in the field i am in. Although things can get pretty mundane at times but there are always people to cheer you up.

During the course of my work(where i started to feel that patients come and go and will eventually forget you someday), i got plesant surprises. I had an ex patient visiting me and my fellow members just to check on how we are. That was very nice of him. I have this old lady who is a reccurent case. She was demoralised and down to know that she has been diagnosed with cancer again that she was relectant to come for treatment. She came about an hour late for her first treatment because she refused to get out of the house. Her daughter told me that her mother, my patient found me very warm and that encouraged her to come for her treatments daily and mind you she is always fifteen minutes early now..Ahem.. Somehow i did not know that i could make a difference in such a manner. But i guess everything you do will cause some hurt or happiness in this world right?

This brings me to the second topic of office politics. Office politics or rather any kind of politics are created by man themselves. I know of someone who once said that he\she will not be part of office politics but what a surprise...he\she is actually part of it. How can you make a negative comment about someone whom you have not worked with? How rude is that? Learning is a life long process. Can we be certain that what knowledge we have acquired so far will be sufficient to last us our entire lifetime?!?!?! So does it pay to be so snobbish??

I will let you my readers reflect on this.

Clueless..

Its been a super long time since i have lst written in my blog. It seems abit 'alienated' to write in it now. My best friend kinda pushed me into writing an entry.So as you can tell from my title this entry is neither going to have any head nor tail. So just read with the flow.

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

Work has been going alright so far. Trying to save as much as i can for my Sydney trip in december cause i told my dad that i would pay for his ticket and expenses. All he has to do is to come along.And i have still not decided what to wear. Maybe ei'll just wear one of my pants

I have been feeling so unsatisfied with everything. Its like i am doing everything so haf heartedly. I don't have much to say to people. I rather just be doing my own thing than moving in a crowd. Is it just this season or is it going to be like that?

Sorry minah but i really don't feel like filling an entry at this point or maybe there really isn't much to write about.Oh well

Updates...

Alot has happened since my last blog entry. Let me start filling you bit by bit but actually you probably do know whats been happening.

I turned 23!?!?! Well i am still trying to get used to that idea but i guess its a phase of life. I had a graduation cum birthday party at one of the north india restaurants in town. I will be posting pictures soon so that you can catch a glimpse of the event. The guests included my close friends and my imeediate relatives but we had a turn out of 70 people. I did not know that my immediate family was so big!?!?! Haha probably never had them together at once. Thats probably why. I wore the skirt my best friend bought for me upon my arrival back in Singapore. Thanks gal! At least i did not have to crack my head on the outfir bit!

Hmm i think thats the main event in the month of August. Nothing much has happened in September. Oh ya Mel...I FINALLY watched Little man..hehe I had a gathering with the minah, the madh and June yesterday evening. It was a fun night. We must do it again guys. This time i don't really want to choke on my coffee....

One Fine Day...

One possible outfit. I like the colour combination and the grandness.

The colour most brides wear.

I like the turqoise with the pinkish red combination. I have not seen this around.

I am lost for words. Absolutely beautiful..

Tired...

Its been a tiring week. I shall not publicise the happenigs over here but it has been some ride. My younger cousin said 'after all this you will emerge a stronger person'. No i think i am strong enough. I think i need to be strong enough to deal with people with attitude problem!!

During this past week, i have my moods because of the situation i was facing but some people did not understand despite knowing the situation. Life does not go back to normal just with a snap of the finger! It does take time. I just had to blankout their ignorance. In certain ways, i can't blame them because they are not in the shit hole but alas no point talking about it..

Food For Thought...

Its almost to the end of my fourth week at work. I have been pretty exhausted. I am getting used to being on my feet the whole day. I have met the most cheerful patient and i have also met the grumpy ones but i guess its normal in my patients' cases as they are going through a difficult phase of life.

In fact just two days ago a dear colleauge of mine passed away after battling with cancer. That got me thinking. Will i ever have to face such a situation? I just can't help but feel the fear of such things happening.

I have this patient who comes in everyday. She is a foreigner and is in town for her treatment. Due to the extensiveness of her disease, she has loss complete function of her limbs. She knows that her days are numbered. She has left her husband and her four children back home and the only family member accompanying her is her mother. Her mother patiently sits with her everyday talking to her, keeping her updated about the latest happenings and urging her to keep her head up. In fact she was all smiles today when we were treating her as her husband and children were due to arrive in singapore at three in the afternoon. She was counting down to the last second. There, in that ward was this woman hanging in to see her husband and children. On the other hand, there are people like me who may people such as family and friends for granted, thinking that they will always be there. But what happens if one day they are not OR you may not have that one day to say your final goodbye or ask for forgiveness for all the misdeeds you have done?

I would like to take this oppurtunity to thank all my family and friends for being there with me in almost everything i do. I love you guys!

Should I Dream Or Sink Back To Reality?!?!?!

This entry has got something to do with my train of thought recently (like Duhhhhh). So anyway...

The BMW Seven Series - My current obsession. But actually i have been crazy over BMWs ever since i understood what cars were made of. I am still yet to test drive one. Haha sometimes i just feel like heading down to the showroom to just get a 'feel' of the car. But will this dream ever be a reality or will it simply remain a dream by me visiting the showroom to simply test drive it and come home?!?

So here is the reality bit. Will i have to resort to buying the above. I don't fancy the colour much though. But anyways ya as i was saying, suzuki swift? But a car is better than having none at all!!!

Or will i just have to be contented with the above?!?!

To My Fellow Non-Radiation Therapists

Ever wonder what it is like to have my job? The picture below will give you a sneak preview. The picture belows shows a huge machine knows as a linear accelerator which is used in the treatment of cancer patients. Hmmm i guess you learnt something new today!

Weekend...

Now i know how it feels like to be a full-fledged working adult. I am dreading the end of sunday. BECAUSE i have to head to work on monday but on the other hand, wednesday is a public hoilday. So anyway...

My weekend was nothing special. Did all the usual stuff. I have some guests for dinner over later in the evening so i am here filling you guys in. As the nation's birthday draws nearer (not as though it means much to me), it hit me that i am getting older as well. I turn back and look at my past years and realise that they have all passed by me in a jiffy. Hello can you please slow down abit!?!?! I have not lived my 22nd year to the fullest as yet.

So anyways so much so for my entry. This is Parvin signing off!

After the first week...

The week is finally coming to a closure. The first working week of my life. I woke up with a tuesday with a start when i reached out for my phone and realised that it was already 6.20am. I was supposed to be up at 6.10 am. But i still made it relatively early. I then realised i could sleep longer..haha

The first morning was spent talking with the senior about things like leave, policies, should and should not do,etc. I also informed her about my trip to sydney in december for my graduation. She has given the go ahead. I will just have to inform her when the dates are confirmed.

My team mates are relatively nice. There is so much to grasp. The workflow is a headache. Just getting used to that. I guess it will take time before everything sinks in. Work has been great. I am enjoying it. It keeps me busy and occupied. Otherwise nothing interesting has happened on the other side of my life. Just a whirlwind of arguments. I am rather tired of it. Ignorance is the best at times. So thats my past time now.

Well thats about it. Not in a mood to blog now. But till the next time....

Always remember that you are your best advocate,

And you AND you ALONE will take you on the most powerful ride of your life.

Author Unknown

The Working World...

Its almost eleven and i am still up gathering myself for the 'big' day tomorrow. To make things worst, i am not feeling too good and i can't take an MC on my first day, can i?

Anyways, its a new beginning not just for me but my other fellow graduates. We have come a long way together, helping and encouraging each other to move forward. I realised that the people in my batch have also been a source of motivation. Just like any groups of friends, we have had our ups and downs but at the end of the day its forgotten and forgiven. Yes i am talking about my poly mates. After my year stint in Sydney, i have somehow realised who my true friends are.Some were there and some were not. But its an eye opener. You get to see different sights of people whom you thought you knew so well. I am not going to state names but i guess you know who you are. But well, as the saying goes every dog has its day. Maybe not today but definately tomorrow. Its funny how some people can be so nice and so obnoxious when the atmosphere is different. I just get sick thinking about those people. But anyways..

So i shall forget the unsightly stuff and smile for tomorrow!

When you are making a sucess of something, its not work.

It is a way of life. You enjoy yourself because you are making

your contributions to the world!

Andy Granatelli

Back In Singapore...

I am sure many of you have realised that. Before i begin this entry i would like to thank everyone present at the airport and those who did send their good wishes despite not being there. Thank you everyone. I will be posting the pictures taken at the airport once i get down to getting them..hehe

Well my two weeks in Singapore were prety uneventful in a way. I have got my relatives from overseas down. Nevr had so many down at one time. So its been quite a time entertaining. Especially when they come over and all. And you know they actually come over so that their kids can use the pool.

Otherwise life is pretty much the same other than the fact that i changed my mobile phone..haha.

I am officially going to step in the working world from Tuesday onwards. Had my orientation and medical check yesterday. I am having abit of mixed feelings. I am keen to start work to be able to establish a routine in life and not just hang around and be free. I want to get busy. On the contrary, i am going to miss having schedules holidays. I have to apply leave to be on a holiday. Looks like i would be looking forward tp public holidays now! I will no longer be able to meet up with friends if i am finished with classes. BECAUSE there would not be such things such as an early finish in the working world. OH WELL!!!

I am missing Syndye terribly. I miss the people there even more. Mel...if you are reading this just want to let you know that you are in my thoughts. Send my regards to the 'west side gangsta' and your mum. I can't wait till December!!!! I miss having Gloria Jean's with you. I miss walking up in your house and walking to your room in my PJs. I long for the times when you walk in my room at about noon time forcing me to get out of bed (but hey that was due to the late nights or rather early mornings and gangstaa you are also the cause of this).Don't get me wrong mel, i am not complaining. I have enjoyed ever second of my stay with you. It has been memorable. I was trying so hard to be strong at the airport but i think the passenger beside me was so disturbed by my tears that he offered me a tissue. Thank you mel for your wonderfun friendship :)

Its Final...

Its my final day in Sydney. I have gotten my results and did better than expected. Was plesantly surprised :)


I have been busy packing and packing. I was so exhausted on Thursday that my head was spinning and i had to sit down or risk falling down in the heart of Sydney city. But the boxes have been packed and actually were collected from the company yesterday. I woke up this morning feeling startled at the bare spot (where the boxes) were. It then hit me that i was FINALLY going. I did feel abit sad. Sydney has given me so many memories. My best friend and boyfriend took time out of their busy schedule to make a trip here to ensure that i was doing alright and was not feeling too homesick. In fact my best friend, Sofia said she might make a trip down for my graduation in December!!! Hhehe *keeping my fingers crossed*


My auntie decided to buy me and Mel dinner last night at my favourite indian restaurant in Sydney - Billu's Eatery. I ended up buying a box of burfi for my grandmother since she likes it and did not get her anything. The evening ended with three of us watching the movie Grish and my aunt giving me a serious talk.


I am just filling in the blog to commerate the last day.I am heading down to the Opera house and Darling Habour with Mel in a while. We might catch a movie in the evening and gonna do some last minute packing when i get back home.


So i guess i will be seeing the singaporean dudes tomorrow. So welcome to the working world Parvin (reality hits hard)!!!

Home Coming..

While the world is preparing for the world cup finals this weekend, i am getting ready to head home. I don't know how fast this year has gone by. It feels like it was just yesterday when i was busy packing and getting ready for my year in sydney. Now i am packing to head back home.

In fact i just finished packing my boxes to be sent home. Well there is still alot more to go though. Haha.. Down with a flu and slight fever now so decided to stop and take a rest.

Well thats it for now...not in a mood to blog...

On My Second Trip To Melbourne..

I went down to the country link office and booked my tickets for my second trip to Melbourne. What to do?!? The first trip was so satisfying and left me with the desire to explore Melbourne at greater lengths. I am leaving early sunday morning at 2.45am and will reach Melbourne at 7.55am (if there are no delays). The last trip, the train was delayed by an hour so i reached Melbourne at about 9 15. By the time i had breakfast and decided my first stop and how to get there it was about ten so i hope i can reach earlier this time and thus cover more places. I iwll probably update you guys when i get back. But i want to visit the jail which is known for the highest number of executions taking place in the world i think. Hmmm Will check and let you know..haha

Its mid week. I can't wait for the weekend. So tired of work. Its a drag getting out of bed every morning. I hate the walk to work. I hate the gust of wind when i leave the house. Ok so anyway.. Attachment here is pretty slow moving. As i said i like busy deartments. But maybe it is goos as i get ample rest..haha

I finally got the television in my room. I think the owner must have noticed that i did not have a television when she cleaned up my room on monday. So when i came home on tuesday (yesterday), i got a pleasant surprise. :-)

Its the shopping night tomorrow, Thessa and i were planning on what to have for dinner tomorrow. I think she is decided on kebabs. Maybe i will try the wraps from KFC. I am not sure if they have that in Singapore though.

Oh well! Enough of my update on my boring life. Hope you guys are having fun whatever you are doing :-)

Melbourne OH Melbourne...

Well i am back from my day trip. I think i covered quite abit despite it being a day trip. I headed down to St Kilda'a beach and the market around it. I headed to Menbourne central. Went down to the Victoria Market. Walked along Yaara river. I also visited the federation square. My friend was quite impressed with my speed. I enjoyed the quiet and peaceful walks by the river and the beach. It gave me time to do some self reflection..haha

I bought myself a very expensive handmade jewelery set. I walked up and down the shop three times before telling myself that i had to get it or else i would deeply regret it.

I did have a very enjoyable time. In fact i am so tempted to head down there again. I hope i can. Keeping my fingers crosses..haha

From Wagga To Melbourne...

I am now in Wagga Wagga. I managed to get some free wireless network in some computer shop so just logging on to the service and updating you guys. :)

Its been a week of work for me. I don't really fancy it here. I prefer it in Newcastle where the department is more busy and there are more things to do.Otherwise it is freezing here. Too cold to do anything!!! Its like walking through thick fog when i am leaving for work in the morning.

I am heading off to Melbourne tonight for a day's trip. So thats my plan for this weekend. Till the next entry you guys take care and have a good weekend ahead :)

In Strathfield

Its been a long time since i have updated you people. But i am not here to write a long entry. I will probably do so when i am in Wagga Wagga. Using the internet connection from Mel's house so i do not want to hog it for too long :)

I have shfted out of Joseph street and am now in Strathfield. Its been a real tiring week. With all the papers and the packing on friday night. I am craving for a a good few hours of sleep actually..haha

It was a rather sad night for me. With all the memories left behind in the house. will tell you more in the next entry!

Just wanted to let you guys know that i am still alive and kicking.

I will be crossing the roads with ducks tomorrow onwards..hehhe Can you imagine ducks looking left and right and then crossing..haha

Piccies...

Contented after nasi padang
Mel and her mum...the cake cutting session
Awwwwww

Us at the end of the whole function

I know this is crapy and abit off BUT our poster for the CPO presentation on monday

Last Presentation For My Bachelors...

I had my final presentation this morning. It will be the last one in University Of Sydney (hopefully not). It went pretty good i must say. I think we were doing our best since it was the last one for our university life. It was a huge relief once it was over. One module down. So fast huh? My classmates will probably agree with me. I can still vividly rememeber the day i got back from my Newcastle attachment and dreaded the start of the semester. NOW!!! I am almost through it. Mixed emotions i guess. Pardon me for the short entries as i just write whatever i feel at the point of writing and mind you i have no intentions to write long essays. Don't want to bore you guys for too long. Hhaha...till the next entry...

Oh well...

I do not know what to write about but just felt like feeling up some space in my blog. I know it lame but what to do gotta give my faithful readers at least some lines to read.

I just heard a car squeking to a halt outside my house. To come to think of it, i have heard noises of so many would be accidents..haha.. i always expect a crash but nothing happens. I guess the drivers are pretty apt in avoiding near car crashes...

The Last Day...

Yup! The day has finally arrived. I sat for my last lecture from one to three in the afternoon. I had a test in the morning. Thats the end of tertiary education life (for NOW). There is a sense of dread. It has finally hit me that i am REALLY REALLY REALLY going to enter the work force proper. I am not prepared yet!!! I still want to dwell in my student's life abit longer!!!! Can i be a student all my life?!?!?!

So before the day came to an end, i decided to commerate this day by watching a movie. Yup i finally caught the movie The Davinci Code. The ticket burnt a whole in my pocket though. Looks like i would have to cut down on my outings. hehe

I really did enjoy the movie. But i thought the book had more details. The movie allowed me to understand the book and story better. It suddenly made alot of sense.

The weather is getting colder and colder and i am thankful for the new sweaters and jackets i bought. I will be heading down to Wagga Wagga in two weeks. The temperature there NOW is -5 degrees celcius and it is NOT winter yet. Winter begins next thursday. So i am wondering how cold winter is going to be there?!?! Oh man...i think i will just freeze my ass off.

Opportunities present themselves to those that are willing to introduce themselves to opportunities.

Adelyn Ortilieb

The Month Of May...

tI realised that the month of May is a busy month for me in terms of birthdays. I have an uncountable number of birthdays to celebrate. I have too many Tauruses in my life !

In fact i have been put in charge of arranging for a birthday cake this saturday. So here i am trying to wrack my brains trying to think of a nice bakery. Its unlike Singapore where even neighbourhood bakeries do birthday cakes. I have a choice between Gloria Jeans and Michelle's pasteries. But i think i have no other choice but to wait and go down to the shops and look for myself. Caramel and chocolate are a must have. So i am keeping my fingers crossed.

Anyways for all the May babies...This entry goes out especially to you guys!

Farsi Anyone?!?

I do not know why but my laptop has been blasting Farsi music recently. Its obviously because the owner is playing the music...like Duhhhhhhh...But i have got a sudden liking for farsi music..

From Sydney To Singapore...Metaphorically!!

So if you scroll down, you will understand what my title means. This entry specially goes out to the minah in Kembangan - my best buddy. Thanks a million for helping me get the gift to her. I really do appreciate it! Thanks gal! For the other readers, the cupcakes are yet another amazing creation by the one and only - Sofia Ahmad Magad

The Cupcakes ALMOST completed

The cupcakes all wrapped up and ready to go :)

The mystery behind the cupcakes - up close and personal

Home Base...

20th May 2006 - My phua's 50th birthday. Unfortunatly, i will not be able to celebrate the occassion with her so here i am dedicating the entry to her. I love you phua! Happy Birthday!

The snaps were given to me by Gulshan who also had her part to play in the surprise birthday party for my aunt. My entire family went over to my aunt's place at midnight thus you can see that my aunt was actually not appropriately dressed...haha

The birthday cake :) Yummmmmmmmmmyyyy

My old man and the birthday gal

My cute grandmother - Mother and daughter picture
The two most IMPORTANT women in my life - My Phuas

All smilezzzzz :)

My Weekend So far...

Well it started of on thursday night when the minah from Francis street and i decided decided to head out together. We ended up at Parammata. We did some shopping and finally had out long overdue coffee session. HAHA...No! No cheesecake this time. She had to do some shooping but since our stomachs were growling we decided to head the food court to have some lunch and ended up having north indian cuisine. The minah was craving for rice so she got her stomach satisfied :)

I finally bought myself the Escada perfume i have been wanting to get myself!!!! Hehehe.. So anyway...

On friday,I went out with Mellishia and her friends Rashid for coffee. We had a great time together as a trio. We were at Gloria Jeans till midnight. I got a ride home but they stayed in my kitchen for a while longer while we snacked on cadboury's three wishes. It was quite some time before the night came to an end.

It was tiring but i had fun :)

Mellishia and I outside Gloria Jeans!











The extra between is Rashid. He was great company :)

Presenting The New Arrivals In Parvin Kairon's Collection...

My favourite among the two. I like the fact that it zips up all the way forming a turtle neck kind of design.
Isn't it sweet and pretty. I fell in love with the ribbons by the side. Just like me - sweet and pretty....awwwwwwwww (Stop Puking!!!!!)

Been A Long Time...

Nope you guessed wrong! The title of this entry does not refer to the frequency of my blogging but..In my previous entry i told you guys that i was going to meet up with my cousin fromMalaysia. Thats exactly how i spent my tuesday evening actually.

I met up with her at the hotel she was staying - Avilion Hotel. Thats the hotel where the Msian crew stays. I am seeing her after nearly two years. So as expected we had alot to catch up on. But she had a shopping list to sort out first. She had a number of chocolates to buy for people. She even bought chips, pastries, dips and wraps to bring back home. Thats the advantage of being a stewardess. You travel so frequently that you have so much of variety from different places in the world. Her kitchen is a mini 'world' by itself..haha

We had kebabs for dinner. We then proceeded to Circular Quay for a walk before coming down to Darling Harbour for coffee. We were both tempted by the sight of cheesecakes on the display shelf. She is a cheesecake lover just like me!!!!!!!! So we shared a caramel cheesecake which was delicious. Just the thought of it brings a smile to my face :)

I had a lot of catching up to do with my dad's relatives from Kluang. My niece has grown so big. She is now two years old and is just like her dad. She eats and sleeps. Haha...really! My cousin Palay owns a pub in KL and has put on alot of weight...Thingay Thingay...(thats what we call him). My cousin Amrit is gonna finish her biomedical degree and will be entering the workforce. Everypne there has grown (like duhhh). It been some time since i visited them so.....

She brought her wedding pictures with her and left four copies for me but unfortunately its all in hard copies so i can't put them up. Unless i can get a scanner whichis abit impossible.

She flew back to KL today but will be back on Sunday again :) Haaha so i am planning what to do. But for now i have a dinner date on friday! :)

Facing The Reality?!?!

I had a talk with kelvin in the evening. It was a reality hitting session but i have to admit whatever he said did make sense. I cannot escape from the reality of life. Whether i return now or ten months down the road, things will still be the same. Hmmm.. Sometimes in life you need people to knock some sense into you.

Well lets talk about my day. It was a pretty eventful one. Felt like a sunday though. Except for the bit where i had to go to uni. I handed in my module report and was offf to the city with Mel to collect her pay. But i had some shopping in mind. I wanted to get a jacket, photo frames and a wallet. I accomplished only 2/3 of the tasks BUT i shall wait patiently for the wallet to comee my way..haha

So we started off with tea cum dinner at the restaurant she works at. We shared two nuns, chicken curry and aloo gobi and WAIT!!!! How could i go without my vegetarian samosa?!?!?! It was FANTASTIC i must say but i found the crust too thick but it was nevertheless good. Oh ya and to top it of..we had cookies from subway as dessert. While walking back to the train station we stopped by EasyWay and picked up bubble tea.

So in between all this eating and drinking, i did my shopping!!! I bought two jackets and a photo frame to put a picture of me and the bhai. I will put up the pictures of my jackets in my next entry and soon i will take pictures of them on me..heheh which will definately look better than the pictures with just the jackets lying on my bed :)

I came back tired but satisfied because i have been looking around for the perfect jacket and i came back with NOT one but two perfect jackets.

I will be heading to the city again tomorrow. My cousin from Kluang will be down. I missed her wedding last decemeber so i made sure she brought all her wedding pictures. I did not care about the weight because she is an air stewardess and won't have much luggage with her since its a short trip.

Ok i will end here now! Just keep a lookout for future entries :)

Kelvin...

The BRIGHTEST colour of my life...

Being Yourself, Becoming Real..

I heard a story once about an eagle's egg that had gotten lost or abandoned and was found by chickens. When the eagle hatched, it was loved and cared for by chickens, brought up to act and behave as if it was a chicken. It knew nothing else. Until one day, the eagle was with his brothers and sisters pecking the ground, like a chicken, when something made him look up at the sky, High above, he saw a majestic sight, a beautiful bird soaring gracefully. something was stirred inside him, a remembrance, a recognition of 'home'...

He asked the chickens, 'What is the beautiful bird up there?'. The chicken looked up and said,' Oh! Thats an eagle, king of the birds but forget about him. You are one of us, you are a chicken..'. I don't know how the story eneded but to me it is not a case of an eagle being superior to the chicken but just DIFFERENT. The same story has been told about a duck;s egg and one day the duck arrives at a great lake, just swims, because HE CAN....Its natural, leaving his family on shore.

As i understand it, its all about remembering who/what we really are regardless of what we have been told by others or how we have been brought up. A rose will grow into a rose even if it is in the middle of a field of tulips.

There is an ancient Indian word 'Dharma' which has two meanings. The first is 'Your nature, your true real essential nature'. The second is 'your purpose in life'. To me the two are inseparable. I believe the word literally translates as Truth.

Whatever we are at our most fundamental level, at our most base, whether that be something metaphysical, or something like DNA,I belive that to discover or remember it is out 'raison d'etre. To live in accord, harmony with our deepest slaves in the meaning of success.

Its been said that when we dies and return to our'creator', we will never be asked why we didn't cure the common cold, why we never made a billion pounds or anything else along that line BUT simply be asked, " Why didn't you just BE YOURSELF?"

Simon Heighwaya

Leaving On A Jet Plane?!?!?

So...

I picked up the phone and booked my ticket back to Singapore unwillingly.

Feeling A little Under The Weather...

Sometimes life can be unfair or maybe its just plain BAD luck. Well either way, i have to accept the reality and move on. As much as i dread doing so, i have NO other choice unless i decide to do something drastic but the consequences of my actions will fall on my family. Selfish isn't it?


I have always tried to be the best i can but somehow i never seemed to be good enough. Either as a friend, daughter, sister or girlfriend. Always lacking faults here and there. There are times i wish i could just drop everything. I bet many of you feel that way as well. Probably telling you something you already know. Sometimes i wonder if there will be ever a day if i get to make my own decision without having anyone to tell me NOOOO. The damn stinky part of living in a traditional sikh home. Nobody understands. Being the stinking eldest you have to show a good example for the younger one. BUT HELLLLLLOOOOOOO!! the younger ones tend to be the bigger devils with dual sided characters. As much as i know i should not say it but i can't stand the thought of heading back home and sharing the room with my irritating sister. Back to her usual,...checking my smses....looking through my stuff and later denying it...she makes a damn fucking good liar. I just don't want to go back home. ya the thruth is out!!!! i just don't wanna heads back home. I spent a year here without the unnecessary rubbish i have to face at home. As my friends always tell me i lead a very dramatic life. i can never predict whats going to happen next. Maybe they are right and i HATE living that way!!!!!!!!!!


i am just so down right now. Going back home will be a nightmare. Back to reality of my life. No more independance....freedom....back to asking dad if i can this ...if i can thaat.....F***

Surprise...Surprise...

As i walked back home today with my bag of Lebanese Mix Nuts, i thought of what i was going to eat for dinner. I was not really that hungry because of the heavy lunch Melishia and I had. I made my chicken tikka and we had it with bread. So i was super sleepy after a heavy lunch but anywayzz it was SATISFYING..haha


Tomorrow i have made plans with my housemates and the other minah in Francis street to head down to Auburn to get some grocery shopping done and of course the usual dinner and coffee session :) I am looking forward to that.


Well so back to my story on the part where i was thinking of what to have for dinner. When i openend my door, i noticed a parcel lying on the bed!!! So of course it brought a huge smile to my face. It was from my better half...hhahaha Kelvin! In the box, was the entire set of Dan Brown' s books which i have been dying to get my hands on!!!!!! and i got a beautiful woolen caramel scarf (much needed) and IPOD socks to place my ipod in. I have been eyeing the socks for quite some time but it did not make sense to get six (they sell it in sets of six) So i will probably give him three of the socks for him to place his ipod in. So i am have not unwrapped the plastic sheet that is wrapped around the books cause it looks so nice. I just do not want to spoil it. Will admire it for a few days before i start reading it...hehehe

Its the beginning of another week...

Its Monday yet again! I do not know how often i am going to be saying this as i will be meeting monday god knows how many times in my life. No its not moday blues! I am frightened at the rate time is flying past. I just feel that i can't get enough of it. I want MORE! Can someone please invent a thirty hour day?? Can you imagine what riot it would cause throughout the world? I am sure people won't mind the extra six hours BUT think of changes in terms of calanders, clocks and biological clocks!! The twelve hour dial won't be valid anymore. We would have to get a 15 hour dial..haha...well something like that would never come true but HEY!!! who ever said that there were 24 hours in a day?!?!?!?! Obviously some smart alec thought 24 hours in a day were sufficient for him and thus taddah.....we are stuck with having 24 hours in a day!

So anyways enough of my philosophical views. I was supposed to have a presentation today. But there was not enough time so thus our presentation is pushed to tomorrow. Thank god! I was not really in a mood for a presentation. Someone got me real pissed today! Well three of us were supposed to meet a lecturer today. One of them told me bright and early in the morning that she could not make due to a project meeting and she would inform the other girl to meet me directly at the office. So i waited till it was ten minutes pass the time and all this while i kept calling her and she did not answer any of my calls. So i just gave up waiting and went ahead with the meeting. She came up after the lecture to apologise. But i was like why couldn't you tell me in the first place that you were not going to be able to makeit. It would even have helped if you just have picked up the freaking phone!!!!! But no!!!! Oh well....

Lets talk about something more interesting like..hmmmm ... What should i cook for tomorrow's lunch and dinner. Since i am already cooking, i might as well just make the two meals together..haha Well i thought of chicken tikka. For those of you who have no idea what chicken tikka is, i have a picture below. But i don't think mine will look as nice but edible la ah.

Ok i think i have bored you enough with this entry. Hope you guys have a good week ahead!

Let your light shine where others may see the beauty, talent

and glory of your true self.

Dellesa Kirk-Johnson

Mortal Sin?!?

Well this entry is about food AGAIN!But this time its more on the dessert section. Hehe..My best friend was complaining about the fact that Starbucks in Singapore does not serve its cheesecake like it normally does. Its now smaller and in a rectangular shape (if i recall correctly). Thats dreadful man! How?!?!?! Do i have to slurge on that pathetic slice?Looks like i have to find other sources of cheesecakes. Not everyone can do a good cheesecake. Its got to be in the right propotion. I am looking around for the Thai Green curry recipe. I have not found a relatively easy one though. Anyone out there has an idea on how to go about it?

Give me Starbucks coffee anytime!!! It will just bring a smile to my face. Its relatively cheaper in Sydney than in Singapore so i do indulge in it pretty OFTEN. My friend even suggested that i should marry the owner of Starbucks. Haha

Doesn't it look so good? I like the way the cake was served to allow a great picture to be taken. Its some caramel chip cheesecake.

My all time favourite - Oreo Cheesecake

This goes EXCEPTIONALLY well with the Starbucks coffee.

I think this is some chocolate truffle cheesecake. Once again its the way the picture was taken.

Well as you can see from above, I have propbably nothing better to do BUT to pu up entries that will make you hungry!!!!!