Its been three years already

We turned three! Today three years ago was the day kelvin asked me to be his girlfriend. I am till now...haha

We were in the same punjabi school and later secondary school. But it never occured to either of us that we would actually end up with each other. I was not a big fan of his in the first place. I hated his guts and he probably hated mine but to be sure you can ask him yourself. After the O-levels we went out separate ways. I went on to Serangoon Junior College whereas he went on to Nanyang Polythecnic. Little did we know that our paths will eventually cross somewhere down the road at our very own McDonald's outlet in NYP. I was queuing up to get my usual dose of coffe while our friend was somewhere behind or by the side. I turned around and out eyes met. He was a familiar face but i was trying to put a name to his face(which i did eventually of course). It was supposedly love at first sight for him or so he says. It was not for me though cause i am not a believer of love at first sight. Emotions that run so deep can't be formed on something as superficial as apppearance right. I am not trying to say that i am gorgeous or anything like that. We exchanged numbers and we suggested keeping in touch.

According to him, he did sms me a couple of times but i did not reply to any of his smses. Till today i keep telling him that i did not get any of his messages.Our paths crossed again at the driving centre and that when we started keeping in touch more frequently. We then progressed to meeting for movies and then later dinner. This is with accordance to Mr Kelvinder singh's ladder(step) theory. The rest is history.

This relationship has thought me alot of lessons which i would probably have not learnt. In any relationship patience and understanding one another are important qualities.Nothing else really matters.Its important to give cause the more you give the more you will get back.

Can't believe it..

Its already the end of April. I feel like as though i was just celebrating New Year's yesterday. I know it may seem like i am living in some sort of fantasy world but i guess this just means that time is flying by abit too fast. Faster than what i would like but unfortunately we are slaves to time and not the other way around right!?!

I was supposed to meet up with my best pals for coffee today but unfortunately one of them has a cupcake order to fufill so we decided to call it off. See again....deadlines..time...

Back to this friend who has to meet her cupcake order deadline. She quite her high paying engineering job early last month to work on her dream of opening her own cafe. I must say that i do admire her guts. She has the courage to believe in her dreams and work towards making them a reality. Even if things do not go the way she plans *touch wood*, she can at least feel at ease knowing that she had at least tried. But so far i have to admit that the outlook looks good for her. She has got her own cupcake orders and is now even invited to participate in social events through which she would be able to sell her own food creations!!!! I shall not steal her limelight so if you are interested in food, cupcakes and inspiration click on to www.realising-nuala.blogspot.com

Its a terribly warm saturday night.Its been warm for quite some time here actually. My saturday has passed cleaning out the house. Tomorrow my dad hopes to clean the kitchen so i guess another sunday will go by like that. Sometimes i am so exhausted that i just feel like getting a part time maid. But since i am at home on weekends, i might as well help out because if i don't i would just be lazing around and pigging out. Its like a double edged sword isn't it. Sigh! Well at least my dad has begun to help out in the major cleaning. I can't expect much from my sister...Arghh! Lets not get started on her.

I know it may seem like i am talking about irrelevant stuff but unfortunately i just don't have one single topic i would like to talk about. So i shall not bore you people further and just end it here..

P/S...I AM SO TEMPTED TO GET A NEW HANDPHONE. I NEED SOMEONE TO KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO ME!!!!!

Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anybody else expects of you.Never excuse yourself. Never pity yourself.Be a hard master to yourself and be lenient to everybody else.

Henry Ward Beecher

PPS...Miss quote is back in action again ;)

Back to the blogging world...

Its been some time since i have last blogged. Alot has happened ever since. Kelvin left for Perth a day after valentine's day. Prior to his departure, there were alot of preparations for his trip. I think at the end of the day, we were more interested in spending time with each other. Its been almost two months since his departure. I do miss him alot. I cannot just call him and expect him to be free to talk to me. Its different when you are not in the same country.I even have people asking me whether i was actually going to wait for him for two years for him. Its not common to hear of a girl waiting for a guy. But at the end of the day, if you know what you want and its right, then you have to be patient. You may not get happiness immediately but it will definately come your way soon. We are not allowed to change the fate of our lives though. I would like to quote kelvin at this point of time, 'If its meant to be, its meant to be'.

My maternal grandmother passed away peacefully in March. I still can remember the morning my aunt called my mobile to deliver the news. I was given the responsibility of breaking the news to my family. Due to circumstances, we decided not to tell my mum the news till she reached my uncle's place. My grandmother looked very peaceful. She looked as though she was sleeping. Her body was cold and there were signs of bruising. She had passed away at about midnight. According to my aunt, she was aware that her end was near. She actually packed her handbag and placed her mug containing her toothbrush and toothpaste beside her bed. It was as though she knew she would be needing the basic necessities in the next world. Sometimes i wonder, what thoughts were going through her head as she breathed in her last breath of life? Did she have any sort of fear or was she happy to be going as she had seen the world already? We will never know the answers to these questions though.

We kept her body for three days till all my aunts arrived. They bathed their mother for the last time, dressed her up in her favourite colour (green) and bid her goodbye. This was my first funeral at Mandai crematorium. I was strong till the end. As my aunts,mother and all the grandkids placed a rose on her , it hit me then that it was really time for her to go. Looking at her the last time, i thanked her for all she had done.Being her first grandchild, i was always doted upon. The love she showered me was so obvious that my younger cousin once commented, "how come maa sayang paavin (thats what my mum side calls me. i think the 'R' went missing somewhere) so much. My aunt said it was because i was the first grandchild. Even though she could not speak her hugs were full of love. The times where i would just sleep next to her while she stroked my hair while the others were all in the hall would be something i remember. She always used to be fasinated by my colourful watches. She would hold my wrist and just laugh. These are some things i will cheerish.

As her casket was closed and pushed to the cremation area, I had a feeling she was happier elsewhere. You will always be remembered Maa..

Missing Someone..