A New Day

The sun had begun to set and i hung up the smile i have worn the whole day. Though i will make sure that it is the first thing i put on in the morning just in case it is 'that day'. I want her to see me in my very best.


I do the normal routine - eat dinner, clean the house, write (the usual stuff).


And i lay down, hoping to fall asleep quickly so that my new day will arrive quickly. A new day with a brand new sun.


But as i lay there and wait for the worlt to turn half way around, i think about her. And sometimes i smile, the smile will turn into a snicker and often the snicker will result in a burst of laughter.


And there are times where i get that lump in my throat and the tight feeling in my chest and sometimes that feeling overwhelms me and begins to turn into a tear and often the tear multiplies itself and i end up fighting a losing battle.


Then somehow either through joy or sadness, i drift and find myself asleep. Then the dreams begin and keep me company till the new day arrives.


When i awake it is with such excitement! Because i tell myself it could be the day that every other day has led up to and the first day of the rest of my life. I quickly dawn my smile, because i do want her to see my at my very best. Then i look out of the window even though i know its dawn but i still have to confirm that i have been given a chance to find her.


And there it is...THE SUN! Even when it is cloudy, i can somehow see it. It smiles at me and says 'thank you' and i smile back.


Then i ask myself 'is this the day?'. And the excitement rushes over me again. Then i ask myself 'where is it going to be?'.


Maybe it'll be at the water fountain and unexpectedly there i will find her and much more than my thirst will be quenched.


Maybe it will be at the grocery store while i am picking out fruit where she will show me the difference between fresh and spoilt. Then from that moment, nothing i eat will taste the same as before. Because she will bring out the simplest beauty in everything i taste, smell, touch, hear or feel.


Or maybe today will be the day where my angel brings an item to the cash register without its price tag. And as i wait behind the angel ahead of all the frsutrated people who are in such a hurry about their busy lives, I will find myself blessed with extra time. Just enough time to start a conversation with the beautiful person behind me that i might otherwise not have noticed. But i found her because of a 'price check on register 5'.


So will today be the day i say 'thank you god'? Thank you for the sun, which began my new day. Thank you for granting me faith when i arose this morning that i would find her in this new day. But most of all, thank you for not having me to wait to see another sunrise. Because whenever i want to see it, i will look at her and there she shall always be, in her eyes, she will forever hold it for me.


She is my sunrise, my dawn and my new day.



This entry is specially dedicated to you kelvin.