I came back from class and took a good four hour nap. I was supposed to just lie down and wait for my housemates to finish their dinner preparation before i started mine. Next think i knew its was umm eleven.. I made cheese omelette for myself. Man!! Cheese does taste good. Wanted to make sardine but i think i will have that tomorrow. There was no way i was going to cook it at midnight.. 
Well anywayzzz...i suddenly feel the distance of being away from home. Everything is not going on as fine as it appears to be. Would i have been able to make things better if i was there? I don't think i could. If it is meant to be, it is meant to be. But at least i know that i could have been there for someone. Sitting here doing nothing is making me feel guilty and horible. It feels worst when you know you're not actually supposed to know but someone accidently spilt the beans. You are just stuck! You cannot ask if everything is ok. You just wait to receive news. That feeling SUCKS!! But i know i came here for a reason. And i will get it done and do my dad proud. Me being here means alot to him. It means alot to me too but as a parent you anxiously wait for this day and this is one of the most precious gift i can give him...i think! I really wish i could be there for you khop. But i can't if you're not even going to tell me anything.
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must strive on my fren. u'll definitely get thru this just like u always did. as u said so urself, there's nothing u could have done now that u're here. do what u think is right (i'm referring to whether telling them u know about it or not). u always have me!
Thanks alot gal! I felt better after the 'reasoning' on tuesday :-)
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